CHAOS

James 1:27 says, "Pure and genuine religion in the sight of God the Father means caring for orphans and widows in their distress..."

Over the last six years or so God has continually placed this verse on my heart. I first took notice of this verse while at college at Liberty University during a convocation about service to children in need. I keep finding myself coming back to this verse and trying to find out what it means for me in my life. The last couple of years I have focused on finishing my degree and starting my career and felt that I was justified in putting off the longings GOD has placed on my heart. But now that I have started my career, we are looking to buy a house, and have begun thinking about starting a family, this verse has been constantly resonating with me. I feel that GOD is trying to speak to me and guide our  next steps.  I have always had a longing in my heart for helping other people especially children. And have a great desire to provide a loving home for children in need because every child deserves to have parents who love them and are able to care for them. Both me and my husband had difficult childhoods and realize now looking back, how important our parents were to us and the role they played in forming us into who we are today (both good and bad). I feel that no matter the circumstances no child deserves to be abused, abandoned, or neglected. Every child deserves the chance to be given a loving, caring home and the opportunity to succeed regardless of the circumstances they are born into. There has been a song recently that seems to always be on the radio that seems to explain in words that I cannot how I am feeling inside.  I feel like GOD is changing my heart and soften it for something great he has planned, but  "it feels like chaos inside of  me but somehow there is peace.  It's hard to surrender to what I can't see but I'm giving in to something Heavenly" I have always known that I wanted to adopt children and thought that maybe I would like to be a foster parent, but I find that doubt always seems to creep in, as if satan is trying to deter me from what I feeling and thinking. I feel that GOD has given me such a big burden for children so that I may be willing to open my home to children in need of  GOD's love. I am opening up my heart for whatever GOD wants for me. And therefore, I have come to love this song and what it means to me in life right now. I continue to pray and seek GOD's face and his will for my life. I want only to love and serve him and do what he has called me and created me to do. Check out the music video by Sanctus Real!